Music: "You Know I'm No Good (Amy Winehouse cover)" by Arctic Monkeys
Feeling: Frustrated
1. Where were you at 11:45 today?
I was still in bed.
2. Is the person you like older or younger than you?
I just realized that I don't like anyone. Really.
3. When was the last time you saw the last person you kissed?
This afternoon.
4. Ever talked to someone that was high?
Oh yes. Don't remind me.
5. How tall is the person you like? Shorter or taller?
I don't like anyone.
6. Did you have a dream last night?
Nope.
7. Last text message you sent?
"We'll hold hands and skip back home!"
8. Last comment you left someone?
Nah. I didn't.
9. Do you have a Facebook?
For the umpteenth time - NO.
10. What color is your underwear?
Wouldn't you like to know?
11. Last person you were in the car with besides your family?
The driver himself.
12. Do you own a polo?
I don't.
14. Are you currently frustrated with a boy or girl?
A boy definitely. He confuses me.
15. Are you excited for winter?
Winter doesn't fall here so I can't see how I'm ever excited for it.
16. If it was free and it would work perfectly, would you get plastic surgery?
I wouldn't.
17. Have you ever slapped someone in the face?
Yes but it wasn't like really a "slap" slap.
18. Have you ever been called Prince or Princess?
Now that would be hilarious.
19.What did you do last night?
Chatted with a friend and that confusing guy.
20. Who is ONE person you wish you hadn't dated?
You know...someone.
22. What do you hear right now?
The radio.
23. What is the closest thing to you that is blue?
OneRepublic art cover.
27. If you had to change your eye color, would you? What would it be?
Piercing gray. Otherwise, I'm fine with dark brown.
28. Last time someone of the same sex hit on you?
Never.
29. Last thing you wrote your name on?
My notepad.
30. Who do you wanna kiss right now?
Oh that FBI agent; that homicide detective; that geek-boy; and Simms.
32. Does it snow where you live?
I thought we've established that earlier: no.
33. Where did you get the pants you're wearing right now?
Oh, I can't remember.
34. If you could change one thing right now what would it be?
I can't think of one at the moment.
35. Are you in love?
Chace Crawford is the love.
38. When is the next time you will see your grandma?
In the life after death, maybe.
40. Do you wear makeup every day?
Only when I'm going out.
41. Would you go in public without looking dressed up or put together?
Nope.
45. How is your hair right now?
It's all tied up.
46. What is tomorrow?
Sunday.
47. What are you doing tomorrow?
Probably going shopping for school.
48. Who is the last person to call you baby?
Somebody.
49. Have you kissed/hugged anyone in the last week?
Hugged two friends.
50. What are you doing Saturday?
Today is Saturday.
51. Now that this is over, what SHOULD you be doing right now?
Write!
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1. Ever thought about something & started busting out laughing?
Yes. Too many a time, I tell ya.
2. What did you have for dinner?
Something insanely spicy by yours truly. I loved my dinner.
3. Do you like Green Day?
Eh...they're okay.
4. Do you have a big back yard?
Nope.
5. What's the craziest thing you ever done?
I would have to say having my bottom lip pierced.
6. How many boyfriends you ever had?
One. Sad. I know. But I don't care.
7. How many windows are in your room?
One because it stretches across one wall.
8. Who was the last person you yelled at?
My sister.
9. Ever played on the monkey bars at the park?
Yes. Even then I wasn't really playing because I was just too tall.
10. Did you ever eat grass?
Nope.
11. How long does it take you to get ready for school?
Fifteen minutes tops. Well, that was high school.
12. Do you have braces?
Nope.
13. Do you eat Jello?
Nope.
14. Do you remember your first crush? Who was he?
Yes. His name was Alec. I thought he was a very beautiful man.
15. How many bottles of finger nail polish do you have?
None. Seriously.
16. You like Andy Milinokis?
Nope.
17. How many times have you signed online today?
Once.
18. Do you get your nails done?
Nope.
19. Are your parents still together?
Yes. Thank God.
20. Would you make out with a girl for $25.00?
Only 25 bucks? I'd pass.
21. What color is your underwear?
Wouldn't you like to know?
22. Do you wish on stars?
I did wish on stars.
23. If you had your own reality show, what would it be called?
Backstabs. Hah. I don't know.
24. Do you think Britney & Kevin make a cute couple?
Hell no.
25. Do you have any bad habits?
Normal people do.
26. If so, what?
Procrastinating.
27. Have you ever told a secret that you swore to God you wouldn't repeat?
I don't think so.
28. Do you pray?
Yes.
29. What class in school do you think is totally useless?
Definitely Physical Ed.
30. Do you wish you can change your name?
Nah.
31. If so, to what?
-
32. How long did you ever go without taking a shower/bath?
I have to take a bath.
33. What's the color of your favorite apple?
Green.
34. Do you prefer sunny days or rainy days?
Rainy days. Maybe I'd move to Forks.
35. Anyone ever called you a slut?
Yeah. Inside joke.
36. Is 7 your lucky number?
Lucky Number Slevin. Nope. Not 7.
37. Is there anyone that absolutely can't stand you?
I don't know.
38. Is your school a two-story?
More than two.
39. Do you like "wiggers" or "preps"?
Preferably preps.
4O. Do you participate in gym?
I had to.
41. What's your favorite commercial?
The advertisement of the Motorola Gold edition. That was uber cool.
42. Do you gossip?
Maybe.
43. What's your favorite pie flavor?
I don't like eating pie.
44. Do you watch the news?
Rarely.
45. Do you have a stalker?
Nope.
46. 100 friends or 1 best friend?
The latter, please.
47. How many people are on your buddy list?
I wouldn't know.
48. Do you still watch Full House?
Nope.
49. If you can be any animal, what would it be?
Polar bears!
50. Did you like this survey?
Nyeh...it was all right.
Oh, where do I start? It's been long since my last entry, I believe. Initially, my plan was to update at the start of the new year but apparently it wasn't achieved. I told myself that I'd find just the right layout when I see it. So, if you might ask, is this the layout I've been looking for? My answer would be not quite. I'm quite fussy over the littlest of things and fickle-minded, too.
That's just how I get myself all confused to the point of aggravation. But let's not delve into that matter any deeper now; I have far more important things on my mind. I know by typing out the content of the following paragraph could be depressing for others (it's somewhat depressing for me, too. It's hard not to forget the pained, saddened, tear-stained faces of the people I know in school. It's truly heartbreaking.) but I think that it's better I get it off of my chest rather than keeping it all bottled up inside of me for fear it's going to have a negative impact on me. And I don't plan on having to manage any mental-related issue this year or the year after this or ever.
On Thursday, the twenty-fourth of January, had been the release of the GCE 'O' Level result. I was nervous, of course but my friends told me not to worry about it; they were confident I was able to make it. Whereas that ought to calm my nerves down, it didn't. I was worried for them, my friends that aren't exactly my friends. I don't know how exactly I mean by that but I really was worried. I didn't stick around any longer than necessary because seeing one with tears was just enough. I went back to my mother with the result slip in my hand and a smile on my face. I did manage to pass all but one: Math. Well, I didn't exactly get an F9 for that but getting an E8 is just as good as an F. There are very few courses offered to me because of failing that subject.
That was when my mind seemed to clear up its fogs and mists.
I just know what I'm supposed to do.
It's either better that grade or do something that I have no absolute interest in at all for the rest of my life.
And I chose the former. Sure, I'll be nineteen by the time I have myself enrolled in a school; sure I'll be a year late; sure I'm spending one whole year studying only Math; sure I'll feel like I'm already a failure but you know what my brother said? He said it's okay being a year late. You want NAFA and that course, you do another year of Math.
And together with my mother's words of encouragement, those had been the only words I needed to hear to keep me going forth. Furthermore, I'm convinced that I'm doing the right thing when my Math teacher said that I should do another year of Math because really, the only problem is my Math grade.
That's the obstacle I need to overcome.
On the fourteenth of February is my first class in the Academy.